Alhamdulillah!!!! All thanks be to Allah who is so great and has brought The biggest joy and blessing to my life. I am expecting a little boy due to arrive December 18th 2011 inshallah!!!
April 10th 2011 around 8:30 we had woken up. Onur was excited for this day because he was going to the gun show and to watch his team play soccer. So I made breakfast and sent him on his way. I wanted to go back to sleep, but the room was a mess and I needed to pick up an clean my bathroom too. Since he would be gone for hours, this would be the perfect time to get chores done without interruptions.
So I'm going nuts washing the bathtub with bleach and for some reason I get the bright idea to look under my sink maybe get rid of old junk. I started by trashing some old creme samples and nearly empty shampoo bottles. Then I pulled out a bag of old feminine products and saw that I had a pregnancy test from about a year ago. I had taken random tests before because we had been wanting a baby so much and had had no luck. So we had given up. I thought it would just not happen and that it wasn't meant to be... So I knew that if I took the test, I would again be disappointed. But it didn't matter because it was such an old test, I might as well take it and throw it away.
"Ok whatever, lets see if this old test even works any more," I said to myself. So here goes Diana... Not even a minute passed... The fist line appeared and then the plus sign... BAM!!!! No five minute wait time.
My first thought was, "Oh my goodness gracious!! Idk what to do!!!" I stared at the plus sign and thought about the past couple of weeks... Hmmmm... Then I looked at the wrap that the test came in, looking for information like maybe its defective or expired or something.
I couldnt find anything!!! I grabbed the test wrapped it up, put it in a ziplock and ran out the door. I couldn't find Onur anywhere at the gun show and I really needed to tell him about this because I could not even believe it!!! So i went to all the places he had been until I finally caught up with him.
Just a few days earlier he had been saying how he was just going to wait until he was 30 to have kids. I think it was because we had so many failed attempts before. So now I had to ask him if that was really what he felt or was it just talk??
So I asked, "Remember your conversation with your friend... You were saying you don't want children until you are 30? Do you really feel that way??" Onur says, "Why?" and looks around inside the car where we were sitting. So I handed him the ziplock bag. And he looked at it and smiled.
His smile was that of a little kid getting on a ride for the first time. A ride which he doesn't really know if he loves it or is scared of it and wants off. I was scared out of my mind at the sight of the plus sign and I had been hoping his reaction would reaffirm me that this was what we both had wanted so much and were ready and everything was under control!!! What in the world was that scared look for??
So after we both got over our fears, we couldn't stop smiling and telling everyone we were future daddy and mommy. Everyone elses joy and excitement for us made it easier to bundle up the overwhelming feelings of excitement, love, insecurity, fears, and anxiousness and carry us into a mode of getting ready for baby and putting everything else aside. Onur and I moved into our own house, we got the baby room ready, and have been working really hard...
We now have about two months left, I am now 28 weeks along and I just cant wait!!! There have been so many emotions through out our pregnancy and questions in which all my friends and family have been so supportive. I love and thank everyone for their advice and support. We couldn't have a better group of family and friends alhamdulillah!
April 10th 2011 around 8:30 we had woken up. Onur was excited for this day because he was going to the gun show and to watch his team play soccer. So I made breakfast and sent him on his way. I wanted to go back to sleep, but the room was a mess and I needed to pick up an clean my bathroom too. Since he would be gone for hours, this would be the perfect time to get chores done without interruptions.
So I'm going nuts washing the bathtub with bleach and for some reason I get the bright idea to look under my sink maybe get rid of old junk. I started by trashing some old creme samples and nearly empty shampoo bottles. Then I pulled out a bag of old feminine products and saw that I had a pregnancy test from about a year ago. I had taken random tests before because we had been wanting a baby so much and had had no luck. So we had given up. I thought it would just not happen and that it wasn't meant to be... So I knew that if I took the test, I would again be disappointed. But it didn't matter because it was such an old test, I might as well take it and throw it away.
My first thought was, "Oh my goodness gracious!! Idk what to do!!!" I stared at the plus sign and thought about the past couple of weeks... Hmmmm... Then I looked at the wrap that the test came in, looking for information like maybe its defective or expired or something.
I couldnt find anything!!! I grabbed the test wrapped it up, put it in a ziplock and ran out the door. I couldn't find Onur anywhere at the gun show and I really needed to tell him about this because I could not even believe it!!! So i went to all the places he had been until I finally caught up with him.
Just a few days earlier he had been saying how he was just going to wait until he was 30 to have kids. I think it was because we had so many failed attempts before. So now I had to ask him if that was really what he felt or was it just talk??
So I asked, "Remember your conversation with your friend... You were saying you don't want children until you are 30? Do you really feel that way??" Onur says, "Why?" and looks around inside the car where we were sitting. So I handed him the ziplock bag. And he looked at it and smiled.
His smile was that of a little kid getting on a ride for the first time. A ride which he doesn't really know if he loves it or is scared of it and wants off. I was scared out of my mind at the sight of the plus sign and I had been hoping his reaction would reaffirm me that this was what we both had wanted so much and were ready and everything was under control!!! What in the world was that scared look for??
